My Mother Said I Only Care About Myself Until I Canceled Everything I Was Paying

at the top of recent calls. The part of me that had said okay at thirteen was very loud right now. It had been quiet for nineteen days, and now it was asking the same thing it always asked: what if she’s right? What if you come back? What if you say the right thing and this all goes back to the way it was?

And the way it was, was wrong. In ways I couldn’t continue reading …